I don’t think I’m a very good writer. I struggle with grammar, with structure, and generally with what to write. Objectively, I know these things. Internally, I believe I will never succeed at what I attempt. Welcome to my journal of diagnosed, treated, and stable thoughts from a twenty-something with a plethora of mental illnesses and the ability to mask soooo hard that somehow I manage to sound right at home when on the phone.

I’ll be as honest as I can be on this blog. I want people to read what I have to say. I want people to be inspired to be more authentic, more kind, and to allow themselves to look in the mirror and think that they have something to offer. I also want to make money doing something that I don’t loathe.

I know everybody works shit jobs and we’ll get into how spoiled and privileged I am in another post. Still, I’ll say this: I have worked very little, and of the two career jobs I began, my emotional and physical well-being plummeted to dangerous levels relatively quickly. My current job outlook is scaring me enough that I’m trying and trying to come to terms with future careers and not seeing any way around becoming depressed, anxious, and generally burnt out.

I know everyone goes through this. Still, I don’t think we should have too. So as a way to avoid the extremely expensive costs of forgetting when my therapy sessions are, I’m here, giving you my deepest darkest thoughts and hoping beyond all hope, that the good people out there will outweigh the bad.

If you met me in person you wouldn’t be able to get me to shut up about myself. So enjoy my rambles, learn about me, and maybe find somewhere you can be accepted. Maybe find some like-minded people. I don’t know many people who view the world the way I do so maybe it’s time for me to spread my voice.

Or who knows, maybe I’ll write five posts and give up. Either way, I tried something new and that would be a worthwhile endeavor for the short time I stick to it.

A few things you should know before going any further into this manic whim:

I have as many interests as I have hairs on my head so please be gentle when I post about wholesome horse content and fucked up horror video game content in the same month.

If you know me in real life, don’t tell me you read my blog. I mean it, I will be so embarassed.

I’m currently writing a novel and there will be lots of writing-related content shortly.